I've Made A Decision

I've decided to go back to school. My feeling is that I shouldn't wait around to see when I'm going to be able to go back to school again. I should take this time to work towards a new goal. I've been an opera singer and restaurant manager most of my life, but now I think that it's time to make a switch to healthcare. I feel that I have plenty of time to still make my career happen and that this minor inconvenience in the economy can actually be a blessing in disguise while I take time to refocus my energies.

Out Of Work For Years To Come

Have you ever stopped to think what would happen if you were out of work for many years? I know that this is a really upsetting and demoralizing prospect, but could it happen to you? What would you do with all of your free time? What would happen to your family? Would you still be connected?

I've had some time to think about these prospects and it is very scary. I've now been out of work almost a year and a half and I don't believe that I will be going back to work anytime soon. There are days that I am angry and days I just cry. It makes me feel like I've let people in my life down. That I have not done the things they have expected. I know that is not true, I didn't cause this economic mess, but it's hard not to think these thoughts when you have so much free time on your hands.

So maybe now rather than keep thinking about this nightmare I should refocus my energies and still try to accomplish my goals in life. Just because I have no money doesn't mean that I have to stop living. I still have dreams of singing for the Lyric Opera. I have dreams of writing a Broadway show. I have the dream of being a normal weight. There is absolutely no reason that I can't still make attempts at these goals and still look for work. It just may take a while.

I guess the point I am trying to make is that life is not about the money, it's about the dream.

No Job Yet

It's been a while since I've written a post. I was so gung ho on the idea of starting a blog and then it fizzled. I'm trying to get back in the habit. Well, as the title says. I have not found a job yet. Correction...I did find a job.

And it sucked!!!

It was for a telephone answering service. They answer phones for websites and doctor's offices. Pretty run of the mill stuff. I'm not going to disparage them and say the job was horrible (even though I already said it sucked), because I'm really not used to that industry. I know the restaurant industry like the back of my hand, but not telephone answering. In all fairness these people provide a great service. Plus any job in this economy is a good job right? Wrong!

The job was a good job, but it wasn't right for me. I'm a gay man. One of their biggest customers was a Catholic store. I cannot sell Catholic products and violate my very beliefs. Another customer was a pro-life organization. I do not want to get into discussions about abortion issues at work. They also took messages for a mortgage loan modification company, but nobody returned those calls. The job just did not represent my own values. I would rather be out on the street begging for money than selling Catholic products.

I was also told that I would have to field phone calls for a female vaginal stimulant as well as a male enhancement product. I was down with the male enhancement product. I feel that every man should have a couple of extra inches. But I do not want to discuss women getting moist all day. YUCK!!!!

So I quit. In the process I learned that I almost lost my unemployment because I quit the job. But thankfully I didn't. To make a long story short...companies should disclose difficult situations that employees may have to handle before they give them the job.